april

March ended with my relationship ending, but that was then and this is April now. My calendar is filling up quite nicely this month, although maybe I should prioritise uni a little more. A bit of work here and there, catching up with old friends, there always seem to be things to volunteer for, and sometimes i wish i have more time and money to do my recreational stuff.

Snuggling in my blanket with a movie on after a long day is the best feeling (especially in this rainy autumn weather). April and autumn is really growing on me.

it’s true

that the truth can sometimes feel like salt on a wound, but salt heals the wound faster hey? (excuse me if this is scientifically incorrect)

I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.

I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.

I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.

I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.

I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.

I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.

I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye.

– Unknown

last night..

I saw you in my dreams, and everything was like what it used to be.

Today.. A friend mentioned how he had left me alone for a few days so I can get used to that ‘alone-ness’. Cruel but kind. It’s true. It’s like sunshine and rainbows when I’m with people, when I’m preoccupied. But its those periods where I’m alone that my thoughts run wild. I find myself reminiscing, thinking of you and me.

No, I’m not sad.. The tears don’t come out anymore, but I just miss it all.. more and more each day.

but now is the new start :)

a little part of me..

still wishes that I’d receive a message from you saying “I gotcha good! April’s fool”

im happy,

that I can think about us and smile,
see our pictures and not cry.

i still have your ring on my finger,
but that’s just because it has become a part of me.

im happy to see that i have grown,
to understand and to accept,
to not feel anger, betrayed, or hatred,
to love and not regret.

i will always miss your voice, 
and i will always miss your cheesy smile.

but today i can fully say,
im happy,
and im happy for you too.

it’s gonna be hard not to miss our (nearly) five years,
but i’m excited to hear your journey,
i hope you’ll find what you’re looking for,
and whatever happens,
i hope you’ll make the most of it.

Until our paths intersect, peace :)

it’s going to be the longest 50 minutes.

i really am not sure how I’m supposed to think or feel right now..

just shows how unpredictable things are hey?

whatever happens now i hope i will keep walking towards the postive.

thank you for everything, really :’)

all the memories, all the emotions

i will always smile when i think of you.

“Until you heal the wounds of your past, you are going to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex; But eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, Stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories and make peace with them.”

Iyanla Vanzant  (via psychings)

(Source: onlinecounsellingcollege, via conmigoaprenderasasonreir)

Then there comes a day when you’re unsure whether you’re the crazy one or if the world’s a crazy place.

you just murdered me.

sometimes you try to understand things that aren’t meant to be understood.

So lucky to have been part of this little wedding party!Lovely props and event organised by “Parita” wedding design.

So lucky to have been part of this little wedding party!
Lovely props and event organised by “Parita” wedding design.

"Sometimes we put up walls.

Not to keep people out,
but to see who cares enough to knock them down.”