i feel like i wan’t to postpone my final year studio..

Dear John,

Will I see you again?

On another note, this morning I went out to sign a parcel for my house mate and ended up having a pretty nice chat with the delivery guy. He’s 34 and Columbian, happy chap, and he gave me a little Spanish lesson.

My family is the best thing I have, and the best thing I will ever have :) It is a true blessing.

dilemma

I can’t decide whether I wan’t to open up another side of me for others to see. Sometimes it feels like I have a double life (triple even). Three quarters of me just want to hide, and the other quarter is questioning why I’m hiding in the first place (to which I don’t actually have a good answer for really). A part of me just doesn’t want to deal with the questions that follow, and another part is telling me I should be proud of what I love to do and share the passion. So what am I to do? 

I guess I will have a good sleep tonight and hopefully I’ll get some answers in my dreams :P haha.

“If it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you.”

1st of July

Don’t you love it when you start off your month on a high? I’ve never really been able to do a straddle up, ever, but randomly today it just happened. Two. in. a row. I’m over the moon. Hard work pays off guys :) And also having a little (actually more than a little) faith in yourself!


mondays

Oh Mondays, you just got a whole heap more exciting! I always look forward to Saturday mornings and now I’m adding Monday nights to that list as well. Looking forward to doing more acro stuff and less accidentally kicking people in the groin and face! :s

“Winter is a lonely season. That’s why I like it. It’s easier to be alone; there’s no one there to notice. In the silence that ascends and descends at either end of the abbreviated day, there’s room to feel alive. The absence makes space for something else.”

'The Sea Inside' Philip Hoare

changes.

I’m embracing it now, but sometimes it feels like its happening a little too fast. Sometimes its happening at a pace where I don’t even get a moment to stop and question myself. I guess it’s ok, surprises are always exciting right? I guess all that I can do is to make the most out of whatever happens.

note to self:

save up and get a ticket to Cirque’s Totem this year (please!)

“It’s not what you look at that matters, it’s what you see.”

Henry David Thoreau

But I’ve got high hopes 

Pet peeves

I’m the kind of person who’s pretty much ok with everything, but there’s one thing that always gets me. For some reason if anyone, I mean, ANYONE takes food from my plate or hands or whatever without me offering first or asking me if they can have it first.. well you’re pretty much in my bad book for the rest of the day. I’m sorry but in my head I’m probably giving you the dirtiest of dirties.

april

March ended with my relationship ending, but that was then and this is April now. My calendar is filling up quite nicely this month, although maybe I should prioritise uni a little more. A bit of work here and there, catching up with old friends, there always seem to be things to volunteer for, and sometimes i wish i have more time and money to do my recreational stuff.

Snuggling in my blanket with a movie on after a long day is the best feeling (especially in this rainy autumn weather). April and autumn is really growing on me.

it’s true

that the truth can sometimes feel like salt on a wound, but salt heals the wound faster hey? (excuse me if this is scientifically incorrect)